Self PT- Epic Fail

so I tried once again to do self PT... I thought a few weeks ago I finally got the hang of it because I did not flare that much after.   At the instruction of my PT from last week to do self PT atleast once before t his weeks session since my muscles were so bad..... I DID

and today I paid for it- my muscles are very very angry at me.........I obviously have NO friggin clue how to do self PT....  I cant even get my thumb into the position of nine oclock.....  

I thought the ridge I felt at seven was a trigger point, but who the hell knows@@

cant they just offer some sort of class for this type of thing..I mean it is chronic afterall....why not show us the position our hand should be in, so we know how to do it and dont  cause more pain.

Im starting to get very overwhelmed with everything in my life...........why cant anything ever go smoothly...

I may ask the PT this week if she would let me do self PT there so she can show me how to do it......... I mean at this point so many have looked at my crotch...I could friggin careless..........i just want to learn how to do this , instead of sitting here suffering yet another nite.

this setback is bad........... I was at such a good place too before this............


I have nerve damage in my back..not sure where exactly since the neuro didnt send the interpretation to my PCP....  and didnt explain it... I could have hormonal issues........

and for some reason I cannot stretch like most humans...as stretching makes me worse.