It is tough to juggle things outside my health realm right now..... and it doesnt take much to stress me out ... some people dont understand this. I'm going thru a lot right now.... and just need a break... but cant take one ... because i have so much to figure out.
I cant let others bring me down- because i have a lot to figure out regarding my health.
Im in somewhat of an SIJD flareup.... there is a storm coming and im not sure if i should cancel PT.. since i will see the osteo next week.. or not.
im sick of these decisions... sick of the added stresses. its also a hormonal flare up.. i tend to do better during my period. and now all is burning.
i cant wait for my bath... mostly i just wish i would stop attracting drama... i need to focus on me and my health i cannot allow anything to get in the way of that.
i dont care if im alone anymore... i just need to figure some crap out.
sure it would be great to go back in time , but i cant so i must try to focus on me now... and eventually hope things work themselves out... in time. I have gone a long time without PT.... the osteo flared me but then helped.....
