Monday, June 20, 2011

zero tone

At last weeks PT session- after I told my PT about my week and everything I did- she was estatic that my right side had a tone of ZERO- yes you read that correctly like a normal human!!!!!   
I think with everything going on in my life right now this really has not set in- my life is super stressful and hectic right now...but damn a ZERO!!!!

this coming from someone who couldnt even have a qtip inserted, could barely stand PT at all.... and now years later suddenly for no real reason, it is a ZERO.

how on earth does that even happen?  I am not sure-  I thought my PFD was more symptomatic lately, but I think it is the external muscles...and the SI joint....  I really dont know what to make of this as I still am very limited in what activities I can do....  i have to wonder though.... how my PFD has been holding its own...dont get me wrong I am not complaining at all, i will take this, especially right now...take anything I can get.  I can notice a slight difference...i feel a bit lighter in the pelvis...but it is not a drastic difference..........I would think I would notice more.... odd really odd.

the left was at a 2 though tone was, still pretty that has been at a 4 as well a few years ago.... 
i want to work on stretching....  but am afraid to upset this balance that somehow I have created.

the PT thought purhaps it was because of the stress I clenched my butt and the pelvis relaxed.   I dunno, but felt it needed to be mentioned here...for times when this might flare back up.

I also notice the IC seems better, I can eat some foods I couldnt before... sweet potato chips for example...bags of them at a time...  when before they would really bother me. 

I hope this lasts...atleast for a little while.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011


Im not even sure what to title this entry- 
 the last few days I have had more pain- i think diet related. or I should say I know diet related... :(  the flare of the worst kind.
this entry isnt about my health really- just about a falling out with a so called friend....aka fair weather friend-  I guess I just got used to talking with them a few times a day-for the most part they were supportive if anything with providing me with an outlet to the real world , i suppose-   then some time passed and I sort of forgot all about them...until they contacted me-    and what I thought maybe was a moment for them to possibly apologize-for things to go back to the way they were-   turned out to be a conversation I would have been better off not having- it wasnt all bad-    it ended with them saying keep in touch.   gee thanks.... all those days where they were supposedly so concerned about my health about me etc...and that is what I get..keep in touch..... Im not sure why this has such an affect on me-  usually I just let things like this bounce off of me-    maybe because I seem to attract mostly fair weather type of friends....maybe because I thought this person was different...and maybe I want things to be the way i 'thought' that they were. no other way of saying just sucks. 
Im disappointed - and generally ticked off.    Meanwhile I am trying to regain the upper hand with my health and for the most part today I thought I was- but now I am burning yet again.  probably need to do some self PT-   I need my health and general well being to get back to the way it was a few weeks ago...sans this fair weather etc.   I need to shake this off....I need to get back to ME and my goals....strenghtening being number one priority.