At last weeks PT session- after I told my PT about my week and everything I did- she was estatic that my right side had a tone of ZERO- yes you read that correctly like a normal human!!!!!
I think with everything going on in my life right now this really has not set in- my life is super stressful and hectic right now...but damn a ZERO!!!!
this coming from someone who couldnt even have a qtip inserted, could barely stand PT at all.... and now years later suddenly for no real reason, it is a ZERO.
how on earth does that even happen? I am not sure- I thought my PFD was more symptomatic lately, but I think it is the external muscles...and the SI joint.... I really dont know what to make of this as I still am very limited in what activities I can do.... i have to wonder though.... how my PFD has been holding its own...dont get me wrong I am not complaining at all, i will take this, especially right now...take anything I can get. I can notice a slight difference...i feel a bit lighter in the pelvis...but it is not a drastic difference..........I would think I would notice more.... odd really odd.
the left was at a 2 though tone was, still pretty good........as that has been at a 4 as well a few years ago....
i want to work on stretching.... but am afraid to upset this balance that somehow I have created.
the PT thought purhaps it was because of the stress I clenched my butt and the pelvis relaxed. I dunno, but felt it needed to be mentioned here...for times when this might flare back up.
I also notice the IC seems better, I can eat some foods I couldnt before... sweet potato chips for example...bags of them at a time... when before they would really bother me.
I hope this lasts...atleast for a little while.
Monday, June 20, 2011
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Disappointed
Im not even sure what to title this entry-
the last few days I have had more pain- i think diet related. or I should say I know diet related... :( the flare of the worst kind.
this entry isnt about my health really- just about a falling out with a so called friend....aka fair weather friend- I guess I just got used to talking with them a few times a day-for the most part they were supportive if anything with providing me with an outlet to the real world , i suppose- then some time passed and I sort of forgot all about them...until they contacted me- and what I thought maybe was a moment for them to possibly apologize-for things to go back to the way they were- turned out to be a conversation I would have been better off not having- it wasnt all bad- it ended with them saying keep in touch. gee thanks.... all those days where they were supposedly so concerned about my health about me etc...and that is what I get..keep in touch..... Im not sure why this has such an affect on me- usually I just let things like this bounce off of me- maybe because I seem to attract mostly fair weather type of friends....maybe because I thought this person was different...and maybe I want things to be the way i 'thought' that they were. no other way of saying it...it just sucks.
Im disappointed - and generally ticked off. Meanwhile I am trying to regain the upper hand with my health and for the most part today I thought I was- but now I am burning yet again. probably need to do some self PT- I need my health and general well being to get back to the way it was a few weeks ago...sans this fair weather etc. I need to shake this off....I need to get back to ME and my goals....strenghtening being number one priority.
the last few days I have had more pain- i think diet related. or I should say I know diet related... :( the flare of the worst kind.
this entry isnt about my health really- just about a falling out with a so called friend....aka fair weather friend- I guess I just got used to talking with them a few times a day-for the most part they were supportive if anything with providing me with an outlet to the real world , i suppose- then some time passed and I sort of forgot all about them...until they contacted me- and what I thought maybe was a moment for them to possibly apologize-for things to go back to the way they were- turned out to be a conversation I would have been better off not having- it wasnt all bad- it ended with them saying keep in touch. gee thanks.... all those days where they were supposedly so concerned about my health about me etc...and that is what I get..keep in touch..... Im not sure why this has such an affect on me- usually I just let things like this bounce off of me- maybe because I seem to attract mostly fair weather type of friends....maybe because I thought this person was different...and maybe I want things to be the way i 'thought' that they were. no other way of saying it...it just sucks.
Im disappointed - and generally ticked off. Meanwhile I am trying to regain the upper hand with my health and for the most part today I thought I was- but now I am burning yet again. probably need to do some self PT- I need my health and general well being to get back to the way it was a few weeks ago...sans this fair weather etc. I need to shake this off....I need to get back to ME and my goals....strenghtening being number one priority.
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