I lost my PT this week ..devastated is an understatement

you all know how it goes as a chronic pain patient. you're going along living your life the best you can. you work hard to build a great team of medical workers to help you. then one day your dealing with some pretty bad personal issues which has left you with no help doing the tasks you can't do so instead of keeping the PT session you wake up and text asking to reschedule and to your relief they have an opening for the following day. so you go about life ...struggling in pain and new pain from doing stuff you shouldn't have to fit it all in before PT the next day your alarm goes off and you wake up and know you have to go drag laundry that you used to have help with.to a laundramat you get a text soon after the alarm we are sorry but pt is sick today we have to cancel, i take a breathe and reply ugh, ok when's the soonest i can get in pt already knew i was in a bad flare as i had texted her just five days prior if that my gut sensed something was off...she's never sick i push on with my life ...resting looking for someone to hire to help me the weekend passes and i rest as much as i can take half the laundry to get done monday i'm waking up and get the text that changed my life as i knew it for the last eight years at first i just thought they were canceling again, but i opened it and my hands shook. wtf effective immediately she has resigned i couldn't believe it so i call the office ...the office had no plans for my care, she was supposed to work until the end of the year i'm mad ..but i cry instead and i'm rushed off the phone as she has other calls i was told i would get a call back and didn't my world stopped , i cried ..it couldn't be real. my friend thankfully was on her way over...someone that understood... i emailed the PT i had her email and phone number ...it was that type of relationship this is really happening i thought...after years of horrible pt, being injured by one and this pt by devine intervention saving me literally giving me my life back in a blink she's gone...ripped from my team, ripped from my life with no warning and no goodbye the next morning i get three rapid fire texts ...wtf pt office...owner will be in next week, gave list of times ...some taken already so i jump on my phone and reply and then i'm mad ...mad i wasn't called, mad at how it was mishandled ...they could have easily waited a day to text me when they knew what they planned to do with her patients they didn't ...they made it worse , they set me into a horrid flare i got blunt and direct , i wanted my chart, i couldn't trust just one pt ever again i typed thru tears...i even said i hope the owner would agree to how my pt treated me that nite almost at midnite the owner sends the first professional msg...i assume the same one she sent every patient , my name wasn't mentioned ... why not just text that and only that msg and not stress me out and make it all worse for two days? oh i forgot how they want me to pay double for a new evaluation...as if it's on me that their pt quit as of right now until i hear it from my pt i'm not so sure the reason given is valid ... regardless the way it was told to me is cold did i mention when my pain is like this i'm supposed to limit texting and yet that's what the office is doing. i feel like i have to walk on eggshells with the owner ... there hasn't been a day since i found out that i haven't cried my eyes out. i think it would have been easier if the pt herself said hey, blah blah blah i'm leaving you in great hands... because i've been injured , and made worse ...i'm in a panic ...who will i email when in a flare? the kicker is i stayed in this state for my PT ... so now i'm planning on packing up and leaving is this real? yes sadly it is