Monday, January 14, 2013
No PC does no mean politically correct. Or personal computer.. or anything simplistic as that. PC is the pubacoxygeous muscle. I know i spelled it wrong.. maybe when Im not in so much pain I will correct it. Im worn im drained.. i have too much burning to be defeated. Im pretty sure i know what triggered this.. the thombrosed hemmroid. It sux no other words for it. there i was doing so well... walking ready to step it up a notch and get to the gym per the PT to use the treadmill. Simple I thought. BECAUSE I yes ME had forgotten all about this muscle. I had forgotten because for many blissful months it was not a factor and IF it was it was so beyond minor. An obtrator ocassionally towards the outside... but nothing like this. Honestly I have not been feeling OK for about a month now if not longer. I had to goto PT two weeks earlier... I may have to see the osteo this week after just having PT. I dont get how this is not calming down... and it feels like i just had PT yesterday as if the muscle just wont calm. It hurts to stand... which those who read this blog know standing was all i could do... well now it appears my body does not like that... feels like a lot of pressure and tugging. yes my time of the month is due in a few days... could be why i feel even worse. but i need to get things done... and this is making it so difficult.. The BuRN intense like sunburn.. in the left side of the V... from a person not at all used to this burn in years!!! for me after years of getting V injections and crotch creams.... it was discovered this PC causes me the burning. so i naturally freak when it gets like this. Once a few summers ago it was triggered and did not calm down for MONTHS. I try to not let my mind go there but it is so difficult. When i find myself going there i start some deep breathing... because when I cry it kills even more. ugh and grrr. I know if i made it there... my body knows the way back... and i know i have been way worse... sooo.. here is hoping that the flare ends when the period starts... and i can get back to baseline. and please PC can u stom engaging already... I promise im working on building some muscles so you dont have to work so hard. thanx. it is so odd because the SIJD has not been that flared up... at all. in the past the PC is flared from sitting too much, a fissure.. constipation.. carrying heavy items.. praying very hard and doing my best to relax.