While I was out getting groceries today - someone who works at the store I frequent and often makes small talk asked...'so do you work, go to school, what do you do? " Just coming from a pretty painful PT appt.... the only thing I could think of to say was ' I am between jobs' to which he gave me some advice...to just relax...and let my mind unwind... his advice was sincere........ if only I was really between jobs.
technically It could be viewed as between jobs- I mean I am between Doctors right now... maybe I could have answered with ' medical researcher' or thought of something funny to say......possibly at a different time, when I wasnt burning away...maybe I would have said something to make him laugh....
this is a struggle for me though and I thnk about it often- how on earth will I date again with this mess- my last bf had health issues of his own (he could relate to me) I didnt have to explain....
How on earth can this be explained to someone that lives a normal life- I dont think that it can.
I could see it now- a date- well I cant eat gluten, oh no, cant go for coffee , oh that flares my bladder, no, cant do that I cant walk that far.......oh this here...this is the cushion I have to sit on , if not I flare.
I dont know if it is possible to date a normal man. Heck I cant even make small talk without lying.
maybe i will just avoid interacting with him in the future....
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